Indian, 29, virgin, tiny circumcised penis 3.5in erect

Porn, jerking off, blonde ladies with big tits but more importantly a big sexy ass I can worship kiss lick rim and fuck (I’m an ass man)

I’m a virgin 29 year old Indian guy whose tiny circumcised penis is 3.5in long when erect. I jerk off to porn way too much and spend too much money on porn, porn actresses, phone sex, etc. I’m too awkward with girls and have low self-esteem because of my fat ugly body and small penis. Sometimes I find myself drifting into incel-type thinking but know it’s wrong.